Time to make a change

Yep...that's right. It's time to make a change.
There's this song on the radio....it's called A Feelin' Like That or something. But there's this ONE line in it that goes "I started pushin' 30 and it started pushin' back".
That's exactly how I feel....I have always heard that by 30, it gets harder to battle weight issues. But last year, I didn't feel that. Sure, I was heavier than I wanted, but I had started exercising and watching my food intake, and I was gradually dropping the weight.
About 2 1/2 weeks ago, I turned 31 and damn! Suddenly it all hit me. I was more out of shape than a year ago, the clothes were tighter, I felt fat, I'd be sitting and I'd look down and think, "oh my God! That's MY thigh!!!" and be near tears at the size of it!
The thing is, I'm not ready to accept me this way!!! I want to be in better shape, I want to fit into cute clothes still, I want to be comfortable in clothes without elastic still, and I want to be able to run and bike ride and swim and go on long walks and play with my kids for years to come. At this rate, I won't be able to.
Soooo...it's time to change RIGHT NOW! I've been trying a million different things, different programs, to lose the weight. But what I was lacking was a solid desire and a strong, unwavering committment.
So today, tonight actually, I'm making that committment. I will do what I have to do, and I will as God to guide me down this path, and I will succeed in this! I will use all the knowledge I have about exercise and calorie intake, and I will accept advice from friends and family. I will lean on my sisters, and I will learn from the testimony of a good friend. And I will make changes in my life that are necessary to continue living.
It's going to be hard...quite frankly, it's going to suck! But it'll be so worth it in the end!
So tonight, as I finish my final can of Pepsi, I make this committment. I will no longer let food run my life...I will allow God to lead me in my life!

Here goes nothin'.....